I sit in silence, waiting.
Waiting to hear something, anything.
In hopes of an answer that goes unanswered.
I hear the gentle running of the modem.
Rumbling as I hope to hear something else.
I look around the room in the dim lighting.
Memories flooded my mind like a downpour of rain.
A smile, a laugh, a touch.
I close my eyes in hopes to disengage the thoughts.
I’m back in the room again.
I sit in silence, waiting.
I feel like nowadays, there are many people who only think about themselves. I’m not sure if it’s the way people are being brought up, or if society has changed people’s thoughts on a lot of things. I’ve noticed people in general have become more selfish. They tend to only think about themselves and what they’re going to benefit from situations.
When you’re in a relationship, you can’t be selfish. You have to be selfless because you have to think about the other person as well. Sooner or later, if it does lead to marriage and children, you would have to think of the children as well. You can’t just think that you can do what you want and not worry about what your significant other thinks. You have to respect him/her.
If something comes up, let that person know about it (regardless if it’s your significant other, parents, or anyone else important in your life). Don’t stand your bf/gf up. Don’t do no call/no show. You wouldn’t do that at a job that you respect, so don’t do it to him/her. If he/she does something nice or sweet for you, let him/her know how much you appreciate it, and thank him/her. Think about his/her feelings. Not just your own.
If you are a workaholic, and you’re focused on your career. Make time for your boyfriend/girlfriend when you get a chance. Don’t neglect them. Don’t put them on the side and not worry about his/her feelings, especially if they’ve been through so much with you. Don’t just toss him/her to the side and talk to him/her when you feel like it. He/she has feelings too, and if you don’t treat ’em right, they might up & walk out of your life, and you’ll regret it later on.
Hope these random thoughts and what not helps.
This was the 1st time that we met.
You arrived late.
I waited patiently.
You looked relaxed.
I was nervous.
This was the 1st time we held hands.
You casually held my hand in yours.
I wasn’t sure how to react.
You didn’t let go for awhile.
This was the 1st time that we kissed.
You stared into my eyes as if staring into my soul.
I blushed not knowing what to do.
You leaned in.
I closed my eyes.
This was the 1st time that we said, “I love you.”
You said it softly at the end of a conversation.
I wasn’t sure what to say.
You looked at me with the gentleness.
I said, “I love you too.”
This was the 1st time we lost faith.
You wouldn’t admit to your fault.
I asked you to tell me the truth.
You finally admitted your wrongdoings.
I replied that I’d give you a second chance.
This was the 1st time we questioned our trust.
You told me that ya’ll were just friends.
I believed you, but not the other person.
You said that I needed to trust you.
I did, but it was hard to trust fully.
This was the 1st time we moved forward.
You got your promotion at work.
I was happy for you.
You began working more and more.
I supported you.
This was the 1st time we had a big argument.
You were upset with me at something I said.
I just wanted quality time together.
You stopped talking to me for awhile.
I cried, and then stopped trying to contact you.
This was the 1st time we didn’t know what to do.
You couldn’t give me a direct answer.
I didn’t know how to respond.
You kept quiet, and didn’t say anything else.
I suggested some time apart.
This was the 1st time we spent this much time apart.
You wouldn’t call or text like you normally would.
I kept myself busy so I wouldn’t think so much.
You blocked me from a lot of social media.
I just kept quiet and carried on.