Happy 2018!

Happy New Year, everyone!

2017 came with several ups and downs, not just for me, but for those around me too.

Angels. There were many that we lost this year, either from natural processes or from depression. It was really a dark moment for many.

Cosplay hiatus. I took a little break from cosplay to focus more on myself because of other surrounding factors.

Friendships. Lost a couple this year due to unforseeable factors that were really out of my control. Made me sad, but you know? It just means your journey with them came to an end. Don’t let it bring you down. Just cherish the times you had.

Health. In general, I do need to spend more time taking care of myself rather than waiting too long and letting things get worse.

Hurricane Harvey. What more can I say? It was a nightmare. Had many damages to the house, and spent money on repairs. Insurance and Fema didn’t really help.

The good news? I’ve found some amazing friends who I’ve bonded with, and that has definitely helped me through a lot of the stuff I’ve been through. I’m really thankful for those people.

Here’s to all the stuff coming my way! I’m ready for ya!!

~SherrBear

1st Time

This was the 1st time that we met.
You arrived late.
I waited patiently.
You looked relaxed.
I was nervous.

This was the 1st time we held hands.
You casually held my hand in yours.
I wasn’t sure how to react.
You didn’t let go for awhile.
I smiled.

This was the 1st time that we kissed.
You stared into my eyes as if staring into my soul.
I blushed not knowing what to do.
You leaned in.
I closed my eyes.

This was the 1st time that we said, “I love you.”
You said it softly at the end of a conversation.
I wasn’t sure what to say.
You looked at me with the gentleness.
I said, “I love you too.”

This was the 1st time we lost faith.
You wouldn’t admit to your fault.
I asked you to tell me the truth.
You finally admitted your wrongdoings.
I replied that I’d give you a second chance.

This was the 1st time we questioned our trust.
You told me that ya’ll were just friends.
I believed you, but not the other person.
You said that I needed to trust you.
I did, but it was hard to trust fully.

This was the 1st time we moved forward.
You got your promotion at work.
I was happy for you.
You began working more and more.
I supported you.

This was the 1st time we had a big argument.
You were upset with me at something I said.
I just wanted quality time together.
You stopped talking to me for awhile.
I cried, and then stopped trying to contact you.

This was the 1st time we didn’t know what to do.
You couldn’t give me a direct answer.
I didn’t know how to respond.
You kept quiet, and didn’t say anything else.
I suggested some time apart.

This was the 1st time we spent this much time apart.
You wouldn’t call or text like you normally would.
I kept myself busy so I wouldn’t think so much.
You blocked me from a lot of social media.
I just kept quiet and carried on.