Happy 2018!

Happy New Year, everyone!

2017 came with several ups and downs, not just for me, but for those around me too.

Angels. There were many that we lost this year, either from natural processes or from depression. It was really a dark moment for many.

Cosplay hiatus. I took a little break from cosplay to focus more on myself because of other surrounding factors.

Friendships. Lost a couple this year due to unforseeable factors that were really out of my control. Made me sad, but you know? It just means your journey with them came to an end. Don’t let it bring you down. Just cherish the times you had.

Health. In general, I do need to spend more time taking care of myself rather than waiting too long and letting things get worse.

Hurricane Harvey. What more can I say? It was a nightmare. Had many damages to the house, and spent money on repairs. Insurance and Fema didn’t really help.

The good news? I’ve found some amazing friends who I’ve bonded with, and that has definitely helped me through a lot of the stuff I’ve been through. I’m really thankful for those people.

Here’s to all the stuff coming my way! I’m ready for ya!!

~SherrBear

Update

Hey everyone! I’ve noticed in more recent years, it’s been more difficult to blog on a daily basis as I had before. Hopefully, with the app on my phone, that can change. I really want to get back in the habit of blogging.

I was having violent vertigo yesterday and my hands were going numb, so my aunt took me to see a doctor. I was diagnosed with acute labyrinthitis, which is an inner ear disorder where the tubes leading to your brain that helps with your balance is inflamed. It was no joke. I could not get myself out of bed without the room spinning. Apparently, this was a symptom of labyrinthitis.

I was prescribed a steroid and told to rest for the rest of the day. If my condition worsens, I’d have to do a brain scan. After a day of steroids, I have been able to get up and walk around ok. I feel weak since I couldn’t intake much food from the nausea and vertigo. Really hope things will get better, so I’ll keep y’all updated.

In the meantime, if you’ve been wondering how I’ve been, feel free to check out my insta, fb cosplay page, or twitter for more recent cosplay and makeup related posts.

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Thanks everyone!

Guardian Angel

I know that in life, things don’t always go the way you planned. I never asked for anything because I have experienced so much pain and heartache. I’ve learned a lot over the past couple years. I am who I am today because of my past, but I am going to be a better me because of my future. Growing up, I experienced three near death experiences. I also had to deal with family issues, image issues, and a health issue that could’ve been permanent, which I recovered from.

My outlook on life changed, and I became more optimistic on life because life should be cherished. I believed that if I was good to others, I’d be treated the same way. I firmly stood by this, but I knew that nothing lasts forever. With good, there will be bad, and vice versa. Although I was surrounded by those who cared about me, I ended up getting hurt in relationships. I don’t blame anyone. That’s just life.

I really thought I wouldn’t be able to be happy again, but then came a guardian angel. I know. It’s strange calling him that, but I believe it. He came into my life all of a sudden,  made me smile, and made my heart flutter. I felt safe with him. Whenever I needed help, even when I didn’t ask for it, he’d be there for me. He always thought of my best interest, and tried to make me happy. Slowly, but surely, I opened up. I fell in love. I was happy.

My guardian angel was there with me, by my side. I couldn’t be happier, but then, I noticed a change. Little by little, things started changing. I don’t know how to describe it, but I became worried. I even had a dream that he ended up leaving. I tried brushing it off, and told myself everything would be okay. Little did I know, it was a premonition for what was to come. That time came, and I didn’t know what to say or do when it did.

I cried. I got mad at myself. I took my frustration out on myself, and I wouldn’t eat because of it. At work, I’d mask everything. In front of friends, I acted as if I was fine after the first couple weeks, but deep down, it took a lot out of me. I couldn’t sleep properly. Then I realized that I had to stop doing this to myself. It wasn’t healthy. Thus, began the process of facing reality. I had to move forward. I was never mad at him. I could never be mad at him. I was just confused at the whole situation. I was disappointed that he couldn’t really tell me the truth because I felt like he was still holding something back.

Of course, I can’t force anyone to say anything if they don’t want to. So, I’m still unsure what happened. I just know that my guardian angel came, and left. While I do wish him the best, I still worry about him. He always did what he could for me. Maybe if I tried harder. Maybe if I was more caring. Maybe if I could’ve done this or that. Maybe. All I know is, I can only watch from afar and hope for the best. I want to be there for him, but if he won’t let me, I’ll just try to in secret.

To my guardian angel, thank you. ❤

Guess Who’s Back!

I have definitely been neglecting my blog. So sorry everyone. Quite a lot has happened. I’m hoping to continue on with my blog again. No new DIY stuff to share, but I do have an awesome new photo I want to share.

Earlier this year, I debuted a new cosplay, Black Cat. Never had I imagined I would cosplay this character because it’s different from the usual characters I cosplay, but I did it.

Here is an amazing shot done by Houston is Photography. His facebook is https://www.facebook.com/HoustonISPhotography/?fref=ts .

Please check him out & feel free to check out my Facebook page for more cosplay photos. http://www.facebook.com/wushuqt

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Anime Matsuri 2015

Anime Matsuri 2015 came & went.

So much was going on that week/weekend. It has been hectic, but now that the con is over, I’m really missing my friends.

Houston Press posted an article of the cosplays they shot at the con. I will post the link below. The group I’m in actually made the cover photo. Hope ya’ll enjoy it!

Photographer: Chuck Cook Photography
Cosplay: Bosozoku Sailor Scouts (Biker Sailor Scouts)
Inspired by: Babs Tarr

http://www.houstonpress.com/slideshow/the-cosplay-of-anime-matsuri-2015-42134412/

Perfect Dating (TV Show) – 非常完美

Whoa. I just realized I haven’t made a blog post in awhile. As I said before, I’m more active on other social media sites like Instagram, Twitter, & FB, so feel free to follow me on those sites if you’d like.

Today, I wanted to talk about a show that I came across randomly one night. It’s a Chinese show called “非常完美” (Perfect Dating). I saw a random clip of a beautiful girl traveling a long way to go on this show to confess her love to one of the guys on the show. Keep in mind, this show is for female guests to go on the show to have a chance to meet the guy of their dreams. If the guy likes her, she can leave with him. If he doesn’t, she can confess her love to him, and he has a choice of leaving with her or not.

Back to the story. So the girl did this elaborate romantic love confession for this guy. It was very touching, and in the end, the guy turned her down. Even the host & the love advisors on the side were shocked. The girl ended up leaving alone, and it was sad to watch.

I know what you’re thinking. This is a reality show, so most likely things aren’t always as it seems. It’s for the ratings, right? I completely agree because I watched some more episodes just to get a feel of what the show is about since I had only seen a snippet clip of the video.

I feel that it is true. The show is mainly focused on certain main guys on the show who are searching for their true love. However, I have noticed when getting a love confession, those certain main guys always turn the girl down because of a past relationship they were hurt in or because they just didn’t feel it, or the simple fact that they didn’t feel attracted to the girl (but the main reason was the 1st one).

My issue with this is that if you’re still getting over a past relationship and you don’t want to get hurt, why are you on the show? It’s completely unfair to the girls who go on there to pour their hearts out to the guy they like on national television, just to get rejected. It doesn’t seem right with me, or doesn’t sit well with me. It actually makes me feel sorry for the girls who get rejected.

It really does seem more like a popularity contest for the guys, but hey, I guess that’s show biz, right? Not really wanting to bash the show because I do find it somewhat interesting to see people’s thoughts & reactions to love/relationships, but I just feel like if you’re trying to find true love, it might not be your best interest to do it that way. Maybe that’s just me. I don’t know. I’m more of a private person.

While I do understand the concept of the show & see why it’s still airing to this date, I just feel that I should advise not only the women who go on the show, but the men too, that sometimes relationships that begin in the public eye might not always last very long because you are constantly being watched. You get no privacy. Your every move can spark movements.

I do wish all the guys & gals good luck though in their search to find their soul mate or true love.

Toodles!

~Sherr Bear ^_^

P.S. I will start blogging again soon. Have new cosplay material to post. Haha.

Night Time Skin Care Routine

First off, I’d like to wish everyone a Happy Thanksgiving! Hope everyone had an awesome day filled with lots of delicious food.

A little bit into some upcoming posts. I will be posting a DIY blog entry on how I reconstructed the t-shirt for my Biker Mercury cosplay. Not sure if I will just write a post about it or make a video & post it, but I’ll figure it out. I will also try and review some more beauty products that I’ve been using. I would like to post some easy DIY stuff you can make for the holidays coming up, but I’ll have to see if I have enough time for that.

I know I haven’t posted much beauty or DIY related posts lately, but with the holidays, it’s always difficult to find time to do the things that you want to do. I will try my best to blog when I can. 🙂 Hope ya’ll understand.

Today, I will be sharing my night time skin care routine with you guys. There are a couple different ways that I approach it, and I’ll give you the alternatives I use. I will list the products, what they’re used for, and how I use it in a list format below.

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Night Time Skin Care Routine (used in this order):

1) Cetaphil Daily Facial Cleanser – Cleanser used for people with sensitive skin. I use this product to wash my face after I use a makeup remover wipe. It’s not too harsh on my skin. I try to use this on a daily basis. This has always been a “go to” product, so no complaints. I use it. That’s that.

2) Tony Moly Latte Art Cacao Pore Pack – Pore-tightening pack with moisturizing milk cream in cacao. I use this one at least once a week, at the most twice a week. After my face is clean, I will apply this product on my face and make sure it’s evenly distributed. Then I leave it on for about 15-20 minutes before I wash it off my face. It leaves my skin feeling refreshed & it makes me smell like chocolates. 😛

3) Believe in a Bottle: Moistfull Booskin – Booskin is a booster & skin toner combined. I use this maybe 3-4 times a week, depending on my mood. I just dab it on a cotton round & wipe it on my face. It removes dirt & oils that are still on the face. I think it works well.

4) Secret Key: Gold Racoony Hydro Gel Eye & Spot Patch – There are eye patches & spot patches for your eyes & blemish spot(s). It’s supposed to help hydrate the eyes and reduce irritation on problem areas. This product has a light fresh scent to it. The patches do hydrate the skin, but doesn’t seem to do anything else like reduce puffiness or darkness in the eyes. The spot patches does give a cooling effect, which sooth the skin. I use these 2-3 times a week. What’s cool about this is that after you use the patches, you can heat it up in hot water & use it as essence.

5) Etude House: Collagen Moistfull Sleeping Pack – A gel-like texture that you apply to the face before you sleep to keep the skin hydrated throughout the night. I try to apply it every night before going to sleep, especially with the cold weather. It’s important to keep the skin hydrated. I think this product does help overnight.

Sometimes, it’s important to take care of yourself. My mom always told me, “There’s no such thing as an ugly woman, only lazy woman.” I used to not care about skincare, but I started realizing that it’s very important. I have a friend who applies 9 or 10 different items on her face before she sleeps, so I think mine is not super complex. Plus, I don’t use all these products all the time.

Hope these brief descriptions & quick review helps those trying to decipher what products is best for him/her to use or try. Aside from the Cetaphil, everything else I mentioned is a Korean product. I’ve been obsessed over Korean beauty/skincare products for the longest time, so I really recommend trying their stuff.

~Sherr Bear ^_^

Waiting

I sit in silence, waiting.
Waiting to hear something, anything.
In hopes of an answer that goes unanswered.

I hear the gentle running of the modem.
Rumbling as I hope to hear something else.
Nothing.

I look around the room in the dim lighting.
Memories flooded my mind like a downpour of rain.
A smile, a laugh, a touch.

I close my eyes in hopes to disengage the thoughts.
I’m back in the room again.
I sit in silence, waiting.